Bring On The Baggy

22 October 2017

I keep wearing baggy trousers lately and I can't tell if I'm loving it or hating it. I like to wear belts to force a waist and none of my baggy trousers have belt loops. I also like to wear baggy t-shirts to hide my belly but baggy and baggy isn't always a look. I can't remember how I used to do outfit posts anymore haha. These trousers are so old but hardly ever worn- I was trying to sell them on Depop but now they've creeped back into my regular wardrobe because they're just so comfy. Also lately I've become such a fan of these cute lacey bralettes- they just make outfits look so much better! I need to buy more as I only really have one that I like and it's too small so the majority of the time I'm wearing it, one of my boobs is just hanging loose.


trouser- UO (old)  |  socks- Primark (such fun socks I don't know why anyone ever wears plain ones!)  | top-ASOS
unethical outfit I know but the trousers I got like back in year 10 and the top is a staple so I don't feel that guilty.  Also I trust ASOS. These photos are such bad quality I need a good camera but I spent all my money allowance for this month 
I feel like this weekend I've been productive than I've been for a while but at the same time I didn't do much. I went shopping both days, but bought a shit ton of stationary to help me feel organised- although I couldn't find the type of thing I was looking for so I tried to revamp a notebook I bought which I kind of regret but oh well. I also got my legs waxed and washed my hair and just done some things to make me less of a gross human being- not that having hairy legs makes you gross, it just made me feel unclean. I then bought makeup and clothes and now just feel exhausted. Although I feel happy as well because I've managed to cross one thing off my 'get done before 2018' list which is clear out my drawers.

I cleared out the vast majority of my A-level stuff and oh boy was it a ride. It's weird because that's like two years of the hardest work I've ever had to do just gone. I kept some stuff as a'just in case' but I don't know what the 'just in case' is for. It was weird though just getting rid of it and because I feel like my final grades aren't a true reflection of me and the amount of work I put in it just made it so much harder. But oh well- it is in the recycling now ready to become so more paper- or whatever happens to recycled paper!

I also feel optimistic that I'm going to begin one of my gap year goals of becoming an embroidery master as I keep watching tutorials for all these different types of stitching. Eventually I'll become so jealous of the tutorials that I'll finally begin. I also think I'm going to look for a Spanish Course after posting this. I lied to someone the other day saying I had begun a Spanish thing and now I have to live up to the lie to redeem myself. I'm not really sure why I lied about it. But I did. Also I bought letter writing stuff lately (Katie inspired me) so if you want to become my friend and write letters to me I'm down. If you want to become my Spanish friend and write Spanish letters to me I'm equally as down.



To Fill In A Gap Year: The Aim

15 October 2017

I was in a rut, I'm still in a rut. My life doesn't consist of much as the moment- not in a pity party way, I just haven't been getting much done. I really wanted to get more blogging done, yet here I am two weeks into October. I think it's because I've lost a lot of creativity lately and spend most of my time in my pyjamas lazing about- but I'm trying to get out of this routine. I've decided to make a mini series for my gap year where every month I'll talk about some progress I've made into some of the things I wanted to begin/continue in my gap year. Some months may be dead months- but I think this will help me stay focused and not give in to my mental blanket. 



This post will consist of the things I want to get done. I can't talk about anything I've got done- because frankly, it's not much. Some of the things on this list will seem very easy and they're purely going on this list due to how long they've been on my 'get shit done' list. 

Here we go pals:

-Run a 10km, 10 mile and a half marathon
-Read all the books I've been meaning to
-Get strong; I'm talking biceps
-Learn some Spanish
-Learn how to write better (blogging and novelling)
-Join a writing/book club
-Get back into drawing
-Get back into painting
-Get back into sewing
-Get into embroidery (this has actually already begun and so far not going well)
-Travel (not majorly- I wanted to do ICS but think I'd like a friend to do that with but I am hoping for Camp America)
- Earn money
-Go to events
-Get hooks for my room. Also clean out my drawers. Also maybe just sort out my room in general
-Get UCAS done
-Bullet journal

All these things are accessible, it just depends on how I'm feeling and lately not very motivated is the answer.  Maybe I should document my gap year better. This will be easy to do when I have a tidy room and clean drawers- I still have some stuff from GCSE's. I'm a major hoarder but this must end!

Anyway- sorry lads for the lack of great content, but hopefully this post is the beginning of something great! And by that I mean after I've posted this I'm going to clean out my drawers. Please leave in the comments good places to by diaries/planners etc. I need something to give me the illusion of progression!

Losing Friends Is Inevitable

1 October 2017

I was scrap booking earlier- I wasn't meant to be I actually have quite a bit of work to get done- but in the process of sorting out my photos I've realised that I've lost a lot of friends. It's weird though, because I couldn't care less. Obviously I hope they're still doing well but I think that once you get older and you don't have school to force a friendship anymore, it's so much easier to cut ties with people whose friendship didn't make you happy and that it is a perfectly okay thing to do.

this is just a random photo of me and my main bitches in Berlin because I don't have any other photos to use 
After my GCSE's I switched schools, the majority of my friends stayed at my old school and only two of them I'm still in touch with today, and the conversation is sparse. I don't really regret losing any of those friends though which is weird because I used to be so dependent on those friends. Then when starting college I made friends and now my friends are at university it's helped me figure out who my true friends are. Not in a bitchy way- there are people I'm lowkey friends with, but I definitely have lost friends but got more solid ones, that's for another post though because this is going to be a moaning post.

The thing about some people is they make it so obvious their priorities don't lie with you- and during college I would be so desperate to keep these friendships because I would always be with the same people, but now there is no pressure to be friends with people who make it obvious I'm not their number one priority. Don't get me wrong- I know the whole world doesn't revolve around me, but what I mean is the type of friends who say 'maybe' to plans because they're waiting to see if anything better will come up. People could at least lie- honesty is the best policy but it's just rude to hit someone with a maybe unless there is a genuine reason. Another thing that's on a similar wavelength
is when people I'm friends with have complained to me that they have no friends which raised the question: what the hell am I? But some people- they have friends but they just aren't friends with who they want to be friends with, which is rude to the friends they have. It's cool to be upset about losing friends, but it just bugs me when people say they have no friends when that's not the case. And there is always a reason for friendships ending- when people make out that the end came as a shock it makes me shocked because a friendship wouldn't end over nothing!

another random photo of me and my friends living it up in the pub (big up my pal in the back with her fishbowl cocktail)

Another thing that I noticed is how true some teen movies are- so and so gets a boyfriend and it's goodbye friends! They come back when they have a fight and are upset with their boyfriend, but aren't there for anything else. I'm happy if my friends have boyfriends, but not when I'm blown off all the time- or even worse when people say their boyfriend is busy that night so 'yeah I can see you'. I think it's important though to call people out for this, because some people don't realise they're ditching their friends and being called out they'll realise their mistakes. It's only if after they get called out and they still continue to ditch you it's time to reevaluate the friendship. It's just, as I've gotten older I've realised school was the only thing gluing me and some friends together as we were incapable of maintaining it outside of school. Maybe due to a boyfriend or maybe just the general lack of effort. My advice to you guys is don't try to cling onto a friendship where no effort is put in on the other end because it's boring and annoying and also so frustrating to constantly be made to feel inferior to other friends.

I won't lie- I'm one of those people that wants to be liked by everyone, however I'm getting over that now as I discover people I don't like. I would never go out my way to be spiteful and if there's anyone I don't like I won't act on the dislike because it's so easy to be nice I don't see why people go out their way to be nasty. I feel like this post makes me look like a bitch. But reflecting over my school life I've realised how acceptable it is to just say no to a friendship if it isn't a good one. Obviously don't like boycott them and stuff, but letting a friendship die is sometimes necessary. 

Side note: all these people in these photos are still my friends (imagine how awkward if they weren't) and I love them very much!

You Have Got To Read Jasper Jones

24 September 2017

Everyone- stop what you're reading (or tell me what you're reading because I need more books to read) and read Jasper Jones. It is the best book I've read in a long time. I feel like every summer I find a book that I'm just so in awe of. Last year it was 'The Girls', this year it's 'Jasper Jones'. A very easy, enjoyable read and is so far from your typical coming of age book. I don't even know if this is a coming of age book. It's just a brilliant book to be honest!

please excuse my gremlin hands

I am going to go into more detail. I find a lot of the time I read a book from a younger perspective, in this case Charlie who is thirteen years old I believe, the author just doesn't get the narrative right? I don't know how to explain. Like their style is either extremely young and trying too hard to seem relevant and hip (although Silvey did set it in 1965 so I guess that helps) or they just seem way too sophisticated to be young! But I think it's just so well written, I loved the way Charlie spoke with his best pal Jeffrey and found it funny and just the change with when he was with Jasper trying to seem older but still falling into his childhood mind. The book was funny, it was also dark and I liked the characters, which is very important. They're just all written so well and I love the way Jasper talks. I don't know what it was about this book, but I just really enjoyed it. Also I didn't guess the ending, which to be fair I rarely do. Looking back at it, I think why I enjoyed it so much is because so many different topics were touched upon like racism friendship etc yet it all just fit together so well.

I realise I haven't included a description, which would help prove to you you guys should read it. Also it has become a film but I haven't watched the film yet mainly because I am too obsessed with the book. Well, obsessed may be bit far, but I just really really love it.

(I'm no author I just copy and pasted some of it from Goodreads)


Rebellious, mixed-race and solitary, Jasper is a distant figure of danger and intrigue for Charlie. So when Jasper begs for his help, Charlie eagerly steals into the night by his side, terribly afraid but desperate to impress. Jasper takes him to his secret glade in the bush, and it's here that Charlie bears witness to Jasper's horrible discovery.

With his secret like a brick in his belly, Charlie is pushed and pulled by a town closing in on itself in fear and suspicion as he locks horns with his tempestuous mother; falls nervously in love and battles to keep a lid on his zealous best friend, Jeffrey Lu.


So yeah- if you need an entertaining book I 10/10 recommend this book, and I rarely give a 10/10 rating. 




Enjoy Your Education

17 September 2017

I'm combining an outfit post with a talky post because I can't remember how I usually do outfit posts. I feel like I'm in a very big slump this week- however I blame that on the fact I've been working 6am-3pm and you know what- I always thought I was a mediocre morning person but I am actually horrendous. I just talk so much shit when I'm tired. I get so tired that I feel drunk. I'm not good on little sleep or in the early hours of the morning.
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It's weird seeing these photos as I've had purple hair for a week and seeing me blonde is like 'woah'
This entire outfit is from ASOS because I get a good discount. Also look! My tattoo- I'm so cool Also heads up this is the softest jumper ever 10/10 recommend buying it. This little box I feel is like when you watch a directors cut of the film except me and my blog 
This week has been strange because a lot of my friends are preparing to go to university and sending snapchats of themselves packing and at the last gathering till Christmas whilst I'm going off to work. Honestly-I am such an adult. I have a tattoo, I drive, I work full time, I go to the gym, I cook vegetables. I'm an adult. But in all seriousness it's so strange seeing all my friends going off to university, and my friends in the year below preparing for university and stressing about which university to go to. No one seems old enough to be going but plot twist- we are! Part of me wants my friends to all go now so I can begin some stuff I wanted to get done in my gap year because all my spare time has been consumed by them but then I realise my time is spent always with them at the moment because they won't be in close vicinity for much longer and I really love my friends. I know quite a few people staying though- but none of my closest friends. I'm just planning on visiting all the time. 

I just find it strange though how I'm in a full time job and they're off drinking every night. I know a few people who are regretting taking a gap year- and despite feeling strange about the fact my friends are going to university, I don't regret taking a year out. Well, as long as I use it to experience things, which I plan to do. 

Time for some words of wisdom from yours truly lads: enjoy your education! Not that I regret taking a gap year at all because I have a lot planned. Well- a lot mentally planned. I haven't actually sorted anything out yet but enjoy your education because learning is great. Then when you meet new people you can tell them fun facts about things you learnt. 

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